Back to Life,

Back to reality! So this week marks the first month of my new loan for my house. We refinanced our house so that we could finish our basement. It has been nice not having a house payment. We saved a little and spent much. Of course we had to eat out and without the reality of paying bills, well a major one, I felt like I was living the good life. But was it really the good life? I have always thought that if I spent money that it would make me feel better about myself, how I look or make more family united. We did eat out more as a family, people at Lowe's are on a first name basis with us, the children are more spoiled and dressed a little nicer. But it didn't take away anything that I have always thought it would take away. I use to think that my depression would go away if I was able to spend more money. Not so. These last few months have been nice to remember that money isn't everything. I like the feeling of contentment. The feeling that I don't have to go shopping for the latest trends, I like have my bills paid and when that is done trying to save a little. I'm still not the greatest at this concept but with this month having to pay my first payment, I realize that it's OK to just relax about money and I don't have always buy something. My kids will grow out of the clothes, they won't eat all the found I buy that it fast food. It's nice to have the sense of reality back. I was getting a little lost in my alter universe.