I don't really think I have blogged about running 161 times but I have felt that I have been running for a while and today I started to get discouraged with my results. I don't run often that is a fact but in my head I feel like I am running all the time. When I envision my self running for reals, I have this nice long stride, my posture is good, my breathing is regulated, my feet aren't burning with the start of blisters and I look fabulous. No sweat, perfect hair and my face isn't crazy red like a tomato.
But none the of the above is what I look like when I actually run. I look beat up, my knees are creaking, my breathing is awful, my hair is a mess, along with my sweat that is crystallizing into salt.
It's pathetic really.
Something made me smile in the moments I started to get down on myself. I was watching my shadow. My shadow has changed over the years. It use to be thin, to say that I was thin. It use to be big and pregnant when that was my stage in life. After pregnancy it looked a bit round around the edges. Flabby and large. I didn't like looking at my shadow then, at any time. But slowly I have seen that shadow muffin top fade away. I am not saying that it isn't gone but it has been reduced. My arms in my shadow, you can see the definition of them. My legs are looking skinnier not elephant legs pounding the pavement.Yep, this made me smile to think about the times that I have wanted a smaller, thinner shadow. I know that it's going to take more time to get that shadow down to where I want it.
I will keep on pounding the pavement. .
Happy moment, the other day I was in the car with my children and they were discussing my size, nice right? Well they both told me that they have liked the way I look. That I am looking a lot skinnier. I will keep on running for more compliments like that.
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