It's that time of year again

I know I should be happy and joyous that a new school has come. But I'm not. I miss my kids. The noise the " I love yous" the hugs. The "I'm bored". I am selfish and I want my kids to be around me. I want to see them everyday for the WHOLE DAY. I like vegging out with them and going to the pool, lake and watching them interact with their friends.
When they are in school I miss all of that. I miss seeing them. Hearing them play, read and make up stories.
Monday Jersey started a new school year as a second grader. I walked her to school. She was so excited. I could tell she was a bit nervous since this year we changed tracks. We are on A track. I'm curious to see if I will like this track. I like that next year we will have a bit more summer than just three weeks.

Phoenix starts school on Tuesday! We met his teacher this last week, were he had some Kindergarten testing. He did a very good job in answering all the questions. I am taking Tuesday off as a mental health day because my house is going to be real quiet with everyone gone. Why do children have to grow up? I am starting to get more nervous for Phoenix because he has been more whiny. I'm sure it's because he has been tired but I'm chalking it up to he isn't ready to go. He still needs his mom.
Lots of people I have talked to say they were excited when there last one went off to school. Yes, maybe I will be but I don't see my kids either like a lot of people. Mornings and weekends are when we make the most of our time together. I know it will be hard but in the end, it's worth it.