I wish

I wish I could say that this week has been about fun and games. But sadly it hasn't (no one has died) I just feel more overwhelmed then I did last week. I think it's because of lack of sleep again and trying to maintain my "perfect mom" image.
It seemed like this week there was always something or other going on. Not that I don't like to be busy but it felt when I would wake up in the morning it was time to feed kids, get showered, get ready for work and then be out the door. No time to just sit back and guess well, blog. I missed "my time". When is a working mom suppose to find it? Not that I don't love being with my kids but I think my parenting went out the window (sometimes) because I was tired of the whining and complaining about something so I would just let them get their way. Nice.
Then just coming home at night and everyone being asleep was sort of sad. Not that I want my kids to stay up late to wee hours of the morning so that the next day they are more whiny. Just that it was hard to try to unwind when everything I wanted to do was just going to wake someone up.
I could tell that Mike was going through the same withdraw of not having support as I felt. We started arguing about the dumbest stuff and not that we are doing this face to face but either through e-mail or phone calls. I really did try to wake up when he did so that I could see him but it was really hard to wake up at 6:30am to talk to him when I went to bed at 2am.
OK so enough complaining, really, I wanted to do this job, I wanted to work longer hours, I need to be grateful and thankful that I do have a good job that can provide for our needs. There is a bigger picture and I know that, sometimes I just lose sight of what it is all about.