Jersey ended her year of Kindergarten on July 2nd. By the end of year I was missing my Jers. I didn't want her to go to school anymore so we could hang out.
I was so excited when she started school that she would grow and be so smart. She has and you know what, I'm a little sad that I don't have her home more. I love that she has become more independent, confident, she doesn't cry as much and she is better at sharing. Things I'm sure that would have come on there own but my baby girl really isn't a baby anymore.
I shed tears on the last day of school. Jers was telling me that I didn't need to be sad. I think I'm more sad for the upcoming year. She will be at school all day. I will only see her in the mornings, Fridays(because of early out) and weekends. How can I be a good mom if I only see my child so little? I have to work so that is why I won't see her. I mean we do have three weeks through out the year where she is off track but still I feel that my mom presence will disappear. I pray that something will change, I don't like to have to sacrifice my children's time. It won't always be this way and I suppose it's because I scared to let my child influenced by someone other than her mother.
Even though I'm scared I am excited to see more of Jers's personality come out in the coming year. I'm glad we have had three weeks to be together and enjoy our time.
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